Is that wrong?
Don’t get me wrong…I am a very spiritual person. In fact my spirituality is my highest value. But I am also a spiritual being having a HUMAN experience and sometimes I loose my cool. You are correct…I..Am…Not…Perfect. At All. Somewhere I adopted a belief that I am “supposed” to be Zen all the time and be the kind of person that only post motivational quotes on Facebook and never shares the true human life experience.
So under the advice of my coach, I started to do yoga. At first I hated it – it was way too still for me. My mind would go a million miles a minute and I wanted to quit. But then my spiritual teacher said…That is exactly why you need to do it. (Several years later, it is at the core of my spiritual practice. In fact, if I don’t do yoga several times a week, I REALLY want to smack the sh*t out of someone.)
Then I started receiving messages that I really need to start meditating.
If I thought Yoga was slow…..good grief….at least in Yoga you get to move around. It felt like torture and I definitely wanted to quit. But then my spiritual teacher said…That is exactly why you need to do it.
Finally, I started journaling in the morning. I love to write, but when it came to writing “without a purpose” I found it challenging and then frustrating. I wanted to abandon that practice too. But then, guess what? My spiritual teacher said…That is exactly why you need to do it.
Dammit. I know she is right. (Now I know how my clients feel.)
Sometimes this whole business of finding inner peace and aligning with spirit makes me want to pull my hair out. My ego tried to convince me that I maybe am not “spiritual” enough and that I “should” be walking around in a white flowing dress all peaced out, chanting and feeling total love even for all people. Even the jackhole who puts his suitcase in the front bins and then walks to the back of the plane so I have to put my suitcase further back and go against traffic to get my bag. (You know who you are.)
It is not to say that I don’t enjoy that moment after yoga when you feel centered and at rest or spending a weekend on a retreat with no interruptions just listening to the waves crash on the beach. Or that I don’t think it is a good thing to be loving and kind and compassionate and grateful…because I do.
But honestly, occasionally I am simply not that Zen. I can be downright snarky and quick witted (lots of people even appreciate my sense of humor.) Sometimes my mouth sounds less like a public speaker and more like a truck driver…okay, most of the time. Sometimes I get pissed off for no apparent reason (although it rarely seems that way at the time). I would be the last person on the face of the earth to claim that I am perfect. But does that mean I am not spiritual? The answer of course is no. It means I am human and these life experiences are my practice.
I had so many people in my life tell me not to allow my personality shine through *ESPECIALLY* in business that I forgot who I really was for a long time and I lost my voice. Even now I write standing in my place of truth, I do have this little left over programming saying…”Maybe they won’t like you.” Of course it sounds kind of sing songy in my head like someone is wagging a finger at me.
Here is the bottom line. I am so over listening to that little voice. Like Dr. Suess said, “Those who mind don’t matter and those who matter don’t mind.”
I got a yummy taste of this recently.
Before I created the Women’s Leadership Academy, a few years back, I was finishing off my last session of a mastermind group for my Millionaire Prodigy Club coaching program, and I have to tell you it was a blast! Not only did our clients get stellar results, but we had so much fun and we laughed so hard. We hugged, we cried and we joked around all while getting a ton of work done.
And what I realized is that my clients love me. For me. In all my brilliance AND imperfections. Spiritual, yet still snarky. Sassy. Candid. Blunt.
And I feel the same way about each of them for exactly who they are. There was a moment when I had this epiphany that I had found my peeps. We are like family in some ways and when it came time to announce the next Mastermind – every single one of them signed up.
Lesson learned – BE YOURSELF. Let YOUR voice shine.
And yes, I am still going to keep doing yoga, meditating and journaling – especially since I still feel compelled to smack the guy with the suitcase. That is exactly why I need to do it.
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